Sunday, August 29, 2010

Wacky Jacqui Design Contest


Jacqui over at Wacky Jacqui's Design is having a contest, ending today, for a full blog makeover!! Why should I win this? Well because I'm the best, duh! But really, I think I should win because...well have you seen my blog? It's not cute. And I cannot for the life of my design what I want. I just don't have the skills, and Jacqui does! Plus, my birthday is coming up, so it'd be quite the nice gift from the blogging gods! If I win, I would win all this!! 


This GRAND PRIZE includes:

A Blog make over that include everything I can do. 
• 2 or 3 column design
• Custom background
• Custom header (basic or animated)
• Matching font color
• Sidebar titles (unlimited)
• Custom signature
• Custom post divider
• Social network icons (unlimited)
• Convert to a 3 column layout (if needed)
• Custom blog button (2 included)
• Matching profile picture
• Navigation bar with text or images
• Matching twitter background
• Favicon
• Deletion of Blogger navigation bar if desired 
• Installation

WOW! That's a lot of good stuff. I already have a design in my brain, i just need someone to make it for me! So Jacqui...pick me! Cause I'm in desperate need of a design!! 

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Travelin Through Thursday Week 6

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Welcome to the Traveling Through Thursday  Blog Hop, hosted by Living on Love and CentsMom On Dealz and  Clipping for Cash! Traveling Through Thursday and a new kind of blog hop! We will be traveling to a new destination each week! Join us on our journey as we discover new blogs and gain new followers every week!
The rules are super simple!
1. Follow the Traveling Through Thursday Hosts (Listed as # 1-3)
2. Link up ONLY THE NETWORK being featured this week (Twitter)-Others will be deleted.
3. Grab our Traveling Through button and include it in a post about the event on your blog.
4. Now start following! Be sure to leave a comment so they can follow you back!


Help spread the word and get more followers:
-Put the same linky list code on your blog and you'll have the exact same list!


THIS WEEK WE ARE VISITING BLOGS AND FOLLOWING VIA TWITTER! Have Fun!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

I have the strength

Life has been a crazy whirlwind lately. Major changes have occurred in the past two weeks. I have not really wanted to talk about it. I still really don’t. But I am hoping to write out some feelings.
As I wrote about before, the hubby came to CA to drive baby and I back home to Arizona. He came on the 2nd, and has since returned home to Arizona. The baby and I are still in California. As many people know, I wasn’t exactly thrilled to be living in Arizona. I tried to love it, I just couldn’t. So hubby suggested the baby and I stay in California with my parents, so I could have family support and go to school. It was an interesting conversation; him telling me how unhappy I am and that I need to focus on me for a while.
At this point and time, I thought everything between us would be the same; we would just live in different places. I was wrong. On the 8th, on the way to the airport, I asked him right out if we were together or broken up. He said broken up. What kills me about this particular moment is that when he told his parents our plan, he let them go on talking like we were broken up. I even asked him why he let them keep talking like that. For days, I thought we were together, and we weren’t. Everyone else knew, but me.
So in the course of three days I moved into my parents apartment, became a single mother, registered for school and was dumped by the person I thought I was going to marry someday.
Apparently, I need to stop trying to make him happy, and just work on me. Which makes sense, I suppose. I have always tried so hard to make him happy. I would do anything to make him happy. Anything.
I have dreams. I want to go to school. I want to go to nursing school. I want to be a pediatric oncology nurse. I want to get a psychology degree as well. I want to be a good mother to my son. I want to be able to support myself.
I just didn’t think I would have to support myself right now. This is very scary for me. Especially because it wasn’t something I had ever thought about, or had planned for. I have no job; and to be honest, it’s pretty difficult for me to get a job right now. Being that I have no money for daycare/babysitter and that I graduated in Feb 09 and have not used my degree at all--which in the medical field is kinda  a big deal. I am now trying to get government assistance--again, very scary.
I start school tomorrow. I am going to be taking classes that I don’t even need because I had to register so late. Geography and Addiction & Domestic Violence. Not exactly classes I would normally choose, but hey, they had space. Hoping my financial aid comes through soon, because I really don’t have the money to pay for it.
I know this post is so jumpy, I can’t help it though. There are so many things going on in my head right now…I can’t organize any of it.
What’s hurting me the most right now, is that he doesn’t seem to really care. He isn’t showing that he’s hurt. At all. He says he’s sad about missing baby, but never anything about missing me. You spend almost 4 years with someone, you kind of expect them to miss you, even a little bit after they dump you. But, apparently, and this is news to me, he has known that I wasn’t the one for a while. He was unhappy for a long time. He was just waiting to see what would happen. Waste. Of. Time. For everyone involved. If you’re unhappy with a person, and you know you don’t love them, then leave. Don’t build a life, and make plans of marriage and houses and another baby. It’s not fair.
And I’m still a little iffy about the situation. He says that he loves me and always will. And this is just a temporary thing. Well what is? The break up? The living in different states? What?
Can someone just tell me straight out what the fuck is going on?
We have Skype dates three times a week; which is great for Ry. He loves to see his daddy.
I worry about Ry. How is going to handle this? After daddy left, he knew something was up, and acted very strangely. Partly my fault for sitting around with tears in my eyes. I am already scared of daddy taking him for a week….and not bringing him back. That is MY baby boy. I take care of him. I know everything about him. No one else in the world knows that little boy like I do.
His brother said that we should talk to family law; it was a requirement for him to buy ex-hubbys ticket home. But we didn’t. Had I known that we were broken up I would have pushed it more than what I did. I can’t loose my son.
I think this is all I can handle thinking/writing about right now. Sorry for the jumpy crazy post. Just had to write something.  And yes, I do realize that this is not spaces properly, Blog Gods, please forgive me.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Travelin Through Thursday Week 4

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Welcome to the Traveling Through Thursday  Blog Hop, hosted by Living on Love and CentsMom On Dealz, Prenda Le Stelle, and  Clipping for Cash!

Traveling Through Thursday and a new kind of blog hop! We will be traveling to a new destination each week! THIS WEEK WE ARE  FOLLOWING VIA GOOGLE FRIEND CONNECT.

The rules are super simple!


1. Follow the Thraveling Through Thursday Hosts (Listed as # 1-4)
2. Link up ONLY THE NETWORK being featured this week (your blog)-Others will be deleted.
3. Grab our Traveling Through button and include it in a post about the event on your blog. (Use the code)
4. Visit as many pages as you would like and follow them.  Be sure to tell them you are a new follower from Traveling Through Thursday.
5. Follow back as many followers as you would like from Traveling Through Thursday. Following back is appreciated!


Help spread the word and get more followers:
-Put the same linky list code on your blog and you'll have the exact same list!
- Your blog visitors can add their blog to your list and it will show up on all lists!



Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Travelin Through Thursday Week 3-Twitter

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Welcome to the Traveling Through Thursday  Blog Hop, hosted by Living on Love and CentsMom On Dealz, Prenda Le Stelle, and  Clipping for Cash!


Traveling Through Thursday and a new kind of blog hop! We will be traveling to a new destination each week! THIS WEEK WE ARE VISITING TWITTER PAGES!

The rules are super simple!

1. Follow the Thraveling Through Thursday Hosts (Listed as # 1-4)
2. Link up ONLY THE NETWORK being featured this week (Twitter)-Others will be deleted.
3. Grab our Traveling Through button and include it in a post about the event on your blog. (Use the code)
4. Visit as many pages as you would like and follow them.  Be sure to tell them you are a new follower from Traveling Through Thursday.
5. Follow back as many followers as you would like from Traveling Through Thursday. Following back is appreciated!

Help spread the word and get more followers:
-Put the same linky list code on your blog and you'll have the exact same list!
- Your blog visitors can add their blog to your list and it will show up on all lists!
-Don't forget to follow the hosts and add this button to your blog so that you can participate in a our "Spotlight Blog of the Week"!

REMEMBER-THIS WEEK WE ARE VISITING AND FOLLOWING VIA TWITTER! Have Fun!

This weeks spotlight is on Belly Charms:




When and why? I started blogging in April of this year. With my Belly Charms online business I have been sending jewelry to blogs and doing reviews and giveaways for the last few years. I finally decided that I wanted to jump in and start my own blog too.



What? I blog about the craziness of being a WAHM with 2 boys ages 3 and 4 and about my business and new jewelry. My younger sister was diagnosed with Stage IV brain cancer a few weeks after I started my blog, so since then I have been dedicating a lot to her and trying to help her anyway I can.


Favorite Part? No doubt is meeting so many wonderful people. There are 5 or 6 other "mommy bloggers" that I am in contact with all of the time. I may never meet any of them in person, but it is great having such fun connections and sharing stories.


When not blogging...... I am working on my businesses www.BellyCharms.netand www.Vitalids.com while trying to maintain control of my 3 and 4 year old boys. It seems that anytime I get a really important business phone call, my 4 year old ends up screaming " Mom I need to poop in the potty". Never a dull moment to say the least. I also have shops on etsy.com and artfire.com. I love to run and workout and that is the only hour of "me" time I have a day.








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Monday, August 2, 2010

Bittersweet Symphony

Picking the hubby up from the airport in an hour and a half. Honestly, it's a little bittersweet. I love him, don't get me wrong. But him being here, means that I have to go back to Arizona at the end of the week. It's hard on me, living there. All my family is here. I had friends here. I liked my life here. In Arizona, I have no one, well except hubby of course! It's tough going from working and going to school to being a stay at home mom in a blink of an eye.
I don't want this post to be taken as I'm not happy with him, that's not what I'm saying. We're in Arizona so he can provide for us. And I love that. That he's taking a plunge, that he's working his ass off, for us. For me. It's been a hard road, our relationship. He finally grew up and realized what he needed to do. I'm grateful. But that doesn't mean I can't be upset that we're there. I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my life.
I'm also not saying it's his fault. It's no ones fault. It's life. And as we've all heard, life isn't fair. I love that he loves his job. I love that he is so freaking good at his job. I hate that he travels. I'm jealous that he loves what he does.
I can't wait for the company to sell, so we can move back home. I can't wait for that. I want to go back to school. I want to work. I want my baby to be happy. And I want my big baby :) to be happy.
Some things are gonna change when we get home. Date night at least once a month. One weekend day just for daddy and baby, alone time for mommy. Hopefully double dates with Nessa & hubby. Looking at houses to rent. Better money management. Figure out how I'm going to go to school. Think about the next baby :).
I haven't seen hubby since June, so obviously I'm happy that he's coming. I just hate that I have to go back to the routine Arizona life.

I'll probably get some shit for this post, but oh well.

Cowboy Party

Yes, yet again I have proven to be a bad blogger. I am sorry!!!
This is late...as usual. It has been over a month since Ryders second 1st birthday party! Goodness! I still can't believe he's a year old!
We had two parties for him because the majority of our family lives in N. California.
My mom is the proud sponsor of this party.

I spent two and a half days making this freaking cake!!! It was yummy home mad funfetti cake with buttercream and vanilla frosting.









This isn't the horse I wanted to do...nor the cowboy. But I got so frustrated with the other cowboy and horse, I cried. AND I screwed this horse and cowboy up really bad as well...can you tell where?


He had his own personal cake of course. It was banana cake with vanilla frosting. Yummy! He had a great time devouring that cake; he literately ate half of it! Little piggy he is. 




We BBQ'd and let the kids play in the park, and what my mother calls the kiddy car wash. 

And of course, what kids birthday party wouldn't be complete without a pinata? Not my baby. 


He of course got a lot of wonderful presents from his family.


The party was a huge success, and everyone had a great time. 

For some reason, I don't have a photo of him in his adorable little outfit. :( 




***Take the Stars***