away at sea

Day 09 -------->Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Being that we moved a few times during my childhood, there are a lot people who I drifted from. I don't have one of those life long childhood friends like most people. 

The person I regret not keeping better contact with is my best friend Jovita. We were friends from 7th grade on. Always together. Then we moved to Oregon a little bit into my freshman year of high school. She then moved to Idaho. We wrote letters, but not nearly enough. 

She was murdered when we were 15. It was devastating. 

daddys girl

day 07 --------> someone who has made your life worth living for

my daddy has always been there for me. no matter how bad i screwed up, no matter what i have done, he is always there. I love him more than words can say. 

My little baby boy. He is my life. That's an obvious one though. 

no question.

day 06-------------> something you hope you never have to do.

say goodbye to my son.

plain and simple

it is possible

day 05 ----------->  something you hope to do in your life

I hope to achieve my dreams. I hope to become a pediatric oncology nurse. I hope to help those little children feel less pain and enjoy life as they can.

I hope to raise my son the best way I possibly can and better. I hope to watch him grow into a wonderful man.

I hope to live my life to the fullest. Not a lost second; not a lost moment.

day 04----------->something you have to forgive someone for

I need to forgive him for everything that happened; it's not all his fault. 

I need to forgive her for what I think is her fault; it probably isn't. 

Cryptic enough for ya? 

forgive and forget

day 03 ---------> something you have to forgive yourself for

This one is a toughy. I don't tend to hold regret for long.

I need to forgive myself for thinking that the year of an abusive relationship was my fault. It wasn't. 

I need to forgive myself for breaking Tiggers heart for stupid reasons. 

L is for the way you look at me O is for the only one I see V is very, very extraordinary E is even more than anyone that you adore

day 02 -----------> something you love about yourself

I love how determined I am. When I set out to do something, I have to do it or I am extremely disappointed in myself. 

My passion also falls under that. 

I care about people. Really care. My friends, my family, I will do anything in the world for them, any time. 

I am honest.

I love that I love to learn. So many people hate learning new things, I live for it. 

I love to try new things; new food, new experiences, etc. Why waste life with what you already know?

hate is such a strong word

day 01-----------> something you hate about yourself

It's always great to start the year out thinking of things you don't like about yourself right? Well here goes nothing...

I hate that I am so stubborn. Being stubborn itself is fine, but I am overly stubborn, and I know this, yet I still cannot do a thing about it. 

I hate that no matter what, I cannot speak emotionally. It always turns into a logical thing; never a true emotion leaves these lips.

On that note, I hate that I keep everything in. And for an unmentionable amount of time. My walls are so high I might be a skyscraper soon.

I hate that my memory is so horrible; I mean truly horrible. It once took me almost an hour to think of what I had fed my son for lunch that day...

30 Days of Truth: Day 02

Day 2: Something you love about yourself

• I love my determination
• I love my passion
• I love the fact that I can adapt to situations really well
• I love my sense of humor, I think I'm hilarious!
• I love that when I love someone, I really love them 
• I love the mother that I have become. 

day 01 - 30 days of truth

I had mentioned in my post earlier today, that I would be doing the 30 days of truth blogging challenge. Here is day 1.

This is why I wanted to do this challenge. When else are you going to really think about yourself like this? Things I hate about myself are as follows:

• My need to make everyone happy
• My insecurities about what I am capable of
• My need to have someone in my life to make me feel complete
• Procrastination
• Sometimes I hate how blunt I am to people
• My inability to see what I do wrong
• All of the excess hair on my body
• The inability to see that the excess hair on my body is not a horrible thing
• The fact that I cannot and will not talk about my feelings, at all. Ever. 

There are probably more, but at this time, I am going to stop the list. If edited, I will repost entire post with new things in bold. 

Please comment if you are doing this 30 Days of Truth Challenge too!!