It is way too hard to see a child go from this: happy and laughing
To this: passed out in the play pen for the first time ever
And then to this...sick, throwing up, can't eat, and yes, that is a towel behind him. A towel is handy 24 hours a day now. Even when he slept in bed with me last night, he was surrounded by towels.
I hate that my baby is sick and I can't do anything about it.
As a mom of 3, I can say that sick babies take their toll on you in ways you could never imagine. It makes you feel guilty, incompetent and guilty, helpless and guilty, and did I mention guilty? Your confidence is shaken and you go over the past few days in your mind over and over again wondering what you did wrong and how you could have prevented it. But you can't prevent it and you aren't guilty of anything but loving your baby and caring for him. It happens and for most of us, it's minor and he's back to his normal smiling self in a little while that seems like a lifetime. It's what all mothers go through and it gets better with experience but the helpless feeling that your little one is sick doesn't. How can it? He's sick and you can't make it go away. But your comfort and soothing make it easier for him. Your doing fine.
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